OOTD: Tea With My Grandparents

Hi guys, long time no see! So tonight I have been for a meal with my grandparents at their golf club! I thought I would do an outfit of the day for you all :)

Cardigan: Primark
Top: H by Henry Holland
Jeans: Dorathy Perkins
Shoes: Pink Toms

Foundation:
 Healthy Mix Serum - 52
Powder:
 MUA Pressed Powder
Eyes:
 MAC Paint Pot - Rubenesque
 Clinique Eyeshadow - Strawberry Shortcake
 Loreal Super Liner - Carbon Black
Blush:
 MAC Well Dressed
Lips:
 Revlon Lip Butter - Berry Smoothie

Hope you all like this and i will see you soon :)
Lots of Love
KayleighJane
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My Experience With Contraception

Hi guys, I hope that you are all okay. I have really been trying to think of some things that I want to blog about; today when I have sat down in front of my laptop I had a real urge to blog.  One of the only things that I could think about writing about that I didn’t need to put any pictures in with is my experience with contraception. Which may sound like a very strange thing to write about but I would hope that my experiences may help somebody else.  I may end up going into detail in things so if you don’t really want to know then id stop reading now.

So, I started having my periods at around 14, which to me seemed really late as I was in year 10 in school, whereas most of my friends started when we were in year 8 at school, however I think that this had something to do with my height at that age. As until I was about 16 I don’t think that I was any taller than about 4 foot 6 inches.  Maybe I was a couple of inches bigger but not a lot. But pretty much as soon as they started I had terrible pains, which as time went on just kept getting worse. At the age of 15 I went on the pill, firstly was on Microgynon. After being on that for a few months having the normal week break, I started to constantly take it as my pains were not getting better unless I did that, which eventually made it 10 times worse, I used to have days at a time where I could hardly get out of bed and was using hot water bottles and pain killers like they were going out of fashion.

After this going on for over a year I went back to my doctor and she changed my pill to Femidine, Which I really didn’t get on well with. It made my skin worse, to the point of where it was practically acne; it completely changed my moods and didn’t help my pains at all. It also made my periods so much heavier and I wasn’t just on when I had my week where I didn’t take my pill, I never knew when it would be, I wasn’t on that one for very long when I changed to Brevinor, which was helping a bit but still didn’t sort out what the Femidine had started, I was still ‘spotting’ in between when I should have been on, however my pains were slightly better but I was still in agony a lot of the time, so my doctor prescribed me Mefenamic Acid. Which are pain killers that are quite strong, and they were helping a bit but on Brevinor I still had my periods and it made me miserable, my mood swinger were still bad and I ended up lashing out at people that I didn’t want to. I however did stay on Brevinor for quite a long time, until my pains started getting worse even with my Mefenamic Acid.

I went back to my doctor after that and then we started talking about other forms of contraception, I was very keen on having the implant, but my doctor was worried that my body might not respond to the hormones that were in it because I had tried many different pills beforehand and they hadn’t worked. So she prescribed me Cerezette, because this pill contains the same hormones as the implant, and you take it constantly without the week break. This meant that my periods ‘stopped’ completely, I say it in speech marks because they didn’t stop all together I probably had 1 every few months, but it wasn’t much, however I still had my pains, but they were a lot better and my Mefenamic Acid helped a lot. So at the end of January this year I decided that I wanted the implant, my doctor said that she was happy for me to go ahead with it as the Cerezette had been working well.

Anybody that knows me will tell you that I was the most scared person in the world about having the implant put in. I am scared of needles and I really hate pain, on top of that I bruise like a peach, so at nearly 20 years old I still made my mum come and hold my hand. I will swear to anybody that it was nowhere near as bad as I thought it was going to be, I scared myself more than anything. My doctor is one of the nicest women I have ever met and she was very good with me, she told me to put my hand behind my head so that she could get to my arm better and also so that I could turn my head away and not see what she was doing, firstly she injected some local anaesthetic into my arm and then left it to become numb. That did scratch a little bit but didn’t ‘hurt’ after that she put the implant in, which felt really weird; it just felt like a pushing, it honestly didn’t take much more than about 10 minutes. After it was done, my doctor put a plaster on to stop it bleeding and bandaged me up.

I have had it now for about 3 and a half weeks, and I can pretty much say so far it is the best thing I have had done, it was bruised for about 10 days and was a bit sore but now its healed and there is just a tiny scar, no bigger than 5mm. yes you can feel it in my arm, and it does creep a lot of people out but to me there is nothing wrong with it, it has helped me no end, my pains are not gone completely but with my Mefenamic Acid they don’t really bother me too much,  I would definitely recommend looking into it to anybody, I shall give you an update in a few months to see what I think  of it then, but on first impressions, it seems to be working me wonders, and I don’t see why I wouldn’t have it in for the full 3 years, by the time that it comes out I will be nearly 23, so at that time, depending on what situation I am in I may or may not have another one put in, because having children is very high up on my list of priorities  in the foreseeable future.

So I really hope that my story has either interested or helped some of you.

Lots of Love

KayleighJane

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Body Confidence - Inspired By Gok Wan

Hi everyone, I hope that you are all okay, today my post is going to be a little bit different from what I have wrote about before. I just watched the new TV series that Gok Wan is doing, Gok’s Teens: The Naked Truth. This was the 1^st episode in the series and it was about body confidence. I will be the first one to admit I am a massive fan of Gok Wan and I think that he is amazing, so when I saw that he was doing a show with teenagers I was very excited to watch it.  For me I think that the show was outstanding in the way that it was made, I won’t tell you everything about it in case you haven’t seen it and want to watch it. But he is helping teenagers who want to change the way that they look because they have either little or no self-esteem, and some of the issues that he covered could have potentially been very (for want of a better word) ‘touchy’ for some people, however I think that Gok is so great in the way that he faces these sort of issues that he only educates and makes sense of things for people. So I suggest that if you haven’t yet watched the 1^st episode go over to 4OD and watch it.

http://www.channel4.com/programmes/goks-teens-the-naked-truth/4od

However this is not completely the reason that I have decided to write this blog post. Watching this got me thinking about myself. I have never been the most confident girl in the world or the one that always fits in, and I still don’t think I am now. I am so adverse to compliments it worries me sometimes and I spend so much time on my makeup, hair and clothes that it occasionally borders on obsession. I haven’t always been like this though. As I was growing up I was quite a tomboy so I really didn’t care about what anybody thought about me and would be happy in a football kit or some trackies and battered old trainers playing football in my garden.

Me my Brother & Cousin Siobhan

As I grew a bit older I still didn’t really care, I don’t think I did until I went to high school, which to be honest I think is pretty normal. I still loved my sports and that kind of thing but something changed. Granted I did go to an all-girls high school and I don’t really think that helped me or anybody else in my friendship group for that matter. Im not saying that all girls schools are bad in the slightest. Because I think that I probably did learn more, but I do think that it does put quite a lot of pressure on girls to look a particular way. No I haven’t been to a mixed school so I can’t completely compare it but I am just speaking from my opinion. For a lot of my time in high school I was bullied for looking different and being different. I was always really small and wore glasses. (which I still do) and I also used to be one of only a handful of girls that did cheerleading from my school. So they were the things that I mainly got bullied for. I went through patches in my school life where I felt that nobody liked me and that I was just too different (or weird as I used to get called a lot) I did get a pass from the school so that I could go home for my lunch as I didn’t live far from schools that I wouldn’t have to be in school at lunchtimes. However this didn’t really help matters because the few friends that I had close to me differed off with other people and then when I came back into school after lunch I would be on my own, so I do now believe that running away from things does not help. I think it was only when I got intas o my final year or 2 of high school where I found my ‘group’. If that makes sense, I was always one of those people who flitted back and forward to different groups and trying to fit in with whichever group I was with. I suppose I owe a little bit of credit to my twin brother here for a bit of help with this.

Me & My Twin James

You may not know this about me but I have a twin brother, and in our town there was the all-girls school and an all-boys school. So we were in the same year and the kids from each year kind of crossed over in friendship groups and would meet in the mornings and after school and stuff like that. Well my brother was in quite a big group and after a while he kind of helped me to integrate into this group by just going with him to parties or just going and sitting on the park after school (like you did when you were 15) but from this group I managed to find a few girls that I got quite close to and still am today, about 5 or 6 years later. I loved the fact that they were all different to each other in ways but so similar in others and everyone seemed to gel together.  When I was with them I felt like I belonged and I wasn’t an outsider, and I don’t really think I have ever felt like that since.

Me and Some of my friends :)



However even though I had and still have a great group of friends, It never changed the way I thought about myself. I still in myself feel like the ‘runt’ which I know is a horrible way to say it but I can’t think of anything better, I look at my friends when we go out and they all look so beautiful and I just don’t feel like I look good enough, still at nearly 20 what people think about the way I look bothers me, I have found my own style a bit more now I must admit, and I don’t try and dress like other people, or in fashionable stuff that I don’t really like, but I still struggle to find clothes that suit me and that I feel really comfortable and confident in.  I think part of it is down to me not knowing my actual body shape and things like that, but I make the most of what I can do.

Me (A picture I actually like)

I am currently on a mission to raise my self-confidence and make myself happy in my own skin. I had a chat with one of my good friends Alex who is making a portfolio to become a model. And she suggested that we go and do a photo-shoot together over my birthday to see how I like it and how I find being in front of the camera. I am very scared about doing this I must admit, but I do think that if I can get over my nerves it will be a good thing for me to do, to see what I can make of myself and see if I would like to get some pictures together. (I think that’s a long way off) the reason Alex suggested this to me is that she said that before she started having these pictures done she was very self-conscious and that it has boosted her self-esteem a lot. (you wouldn’t think she was self-conscious from the pictures) So I am going to give it a go, no matter how scared I am, sometimes you just have to jump in at the deep end.

One of my goregeous friend Alex's Modelling pictures (By S J Walton Photography)

So I will be keeping you updated on how this goes I think, I have quite enjoyed writing down my experiences, I think it helped a bit. I am very looking forward to the rest of the Gok Wan series and I shall see if it makes me think any more about myself.

Lots of Love

KayleighJane xxx

Kayleigh's Cooking: Pasta with Mince and Tomato and Garlic Sauce

Hi everyone

So cooking is one of my biggest passions in my life, I absolutely love it, so I thought that I would get back into my Blog and start a new mini series of posts called Kayleigh's Cooking.

I will say that alot of my cooking isnt measured and i dont really use recipie books very often, However i do have lots of them, I just cook things that I like to eat mainly, I also love cooking for other people.

So here is my 1st post in this series, Pasta with Mince and Tomato and Garlic Sauce, this is a favorite of mine and i make it alot for my lunch,

(Serves 2)

250g Beef Mince

1/2 Yellow Pepper

8 Closed Cup Mushrooms

1/2 Tin Chopped Tomatos

Dash Nando's Sweet Chilli Sauce

4 Garlic Cloves

Teaspoon Tomato Puree

Olive Oil

Handful Diced Onion

2 Handfulls Dried Pasta

Teaspoon Redcurrent Jelly

First thing I did was to put the pasta into a pan and add some salt to make the water boil at a higher temperature,

Then I got out my mini food processor and added the chopped tomatoes, garlic and sweet chilli sauce,

And then blended these all together to make my sauce for my pasta,

I then heated up some olive oil in a wok on a high heat, and added a handful of diced onion,

I have really sensitive eyes and onions absolutely kill them so I have found a little cheat way to use onions in my cooking, this is frozen diced onion that i get from Iceland, it is £1 a bag, and I just leave it in the freezer and take out however much I need at any one time,

Once the onions are softened add the mince and fry off untill browned, then add the chopped pepper and the mushrooms (which I cut into 4) then fry these off in the remaining oil with the onions and mince. Then poor the sauce over all of this in the wok and cook for about 20 minutes.

Once the pasta is cooked drain the water off, a little trick I use if the pasta is cooked before the meat and sauce is to put the pasta back into the pan as it is still hot, then put the lid back on and put it back on the side of the hob, (this works with our hob as it is hallogen so is flat)

Once the mince is cooked I add the teaspoon of redcurrent jelly and stir that in,

Then i add the pasta to the mince and sauce and stir it in,



This will also help to reheat the pasta if it has cooled down a bit after being drained. this is now ready to serve, i love having pasta with garlic bread, this is a meal that i have alot for my lunch at home and at university, because it is quick to make and doesnt break the bank.

So here is the finished meal, I hope that you enjoy this recipie and if you try it leave me a comment as to what you think of it, i have doubled this up before and cooked it for my whole family and everyone loved it. So i hope that you have enjoyed the first part of this mini series, and there will be another one up soon.

lots of love

KayleighJane

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