Tuesday, 28 February 2012

Candle Love: Colony - Vanilla & Cranberry

Hi everyone, I hope that you are all okay. I know I haven’t posted on here for nearly a week but I haven’t really known what to blog about. However I am at home at the moment (Instead of University) and I had an idea. As some of you may know I absolutely adore candles! They are one of my favourite things in the world and a major thing that I hate about my university halls. (we are not allowed them) so I thought that I would tell you about my favourite candle of the moment.

With Flash

Without Flash

This is the Colony Vanilla and Cranberry candle. I absolutely love the smell of this and as you can probably tell by the pictures it is almost at the end. *sadface* and I really wish that I had bought some more of these as they were Christmas collection candles. I have been trying to find some of them online but at the moment I am struggling, I do have another Colony candle in a different scent that I got when I bought this one which I am going to start burning once I have finished this one.

Fruity scents are my absolute favourite when it comes to candles, as well as vanilla, which is what I think makes me absolutely love this candle. I am going to go on a mission to find some more of these candles or something similar, even as a massive candle lover I still have not tried Yankee Candles, so I think that this may have to be one of my next purchases. Even though I have no idea where I should start with them, so if any of you have any recommendations for some really nice ones please let me know.

As I am moving back home from university at the end of March I think I am going to get myself some nice new candles for then, so when I have been on the shopping spree I will haul them for you on here. I shall have to see what I can find.

So I know that this post was quite short and sweet, but I will think of some other posts I can put up soon and hopefully have some more interesting posts for you very soon.

Lots of love



Tuesday, 21 February 2012

Nostalgia From Childhood

Hi guys, I know that this is probably going to be the most random blog post ever! But today I went to do my weekly shopping for myself at Uni, and I am quite good at buying stuff that I am going to eat etc, and I go into places such as Poundland and Home&Bargain, for stuff like packet pasta and tins of beans! Just random stuff like that, as they are very cheap. However today when I was in Home&Bargain I found something that I have not seen for a very long time:


These were always one of my favourite sweets when I was a kid, especially the green ones (Mint Creams) these were on a top shelf and were 29p a pack yes 29p!! So I decided that I had to buy myself a pack! And they are just as nice as they used to be when I was a kid!

If any of you remember Poppets let me know! And if you do which were your favourite?

Lots of Love



Monday, 13 February 2012

My Experience With Contraception

Hi guys, I hope that you are all okay. I have really been trying to think of some things that I want to blog about; today when I have sat down in front of my laptop I had a real urge to blog.  One of the only things that I could think about writing about that I didn’t need to put any pictures in with is my experience with contraception. Which may sound like a very strange thing to write about but I would hope that my experiences may help somebody else.  I may end up going into detail in things so if you don’t really want to know then id stop reading now.
So, I started having my periods at around 14, which to me seemed really late as I was in year 10 in school, whereas most of my friends started when we were in year 8 at school, however I think that this had something to do with my height at that age. As until I was about 16 I don’t think that I was any taller than about 4 foot 6 inches.  Maybe I was a couple of inches bigger but not a lot. But pretty much as soon as they started I had terrible pains, which as time went on just kept getting worse. At the age of 15 I went on the pill, firstly was on Microgynon. After being on that for a few months having the normal week break, I started to constantly take it as my pains were not getting better unless I did that, which eventually made it 10 times worse, I used to have days at a time where I could hardly get out of bed and was using hot water bottles and pain killers like they were going out of fashion.
After this going on for over a year I went back to my doctor and she changed my pill to Femidine, Which I really didn’t get on well with. It made my skin worse, to the point of where it was practically acne; it completely changed my moods and didn’t help my pains at all. It also made my periods so much heavier and I wasn’t just on when I had my week where I didn’t take my pill, I never knew when it would be, I wasn’t on that one for very long when I changed to Brevinor, which was helping a bit but still didn’t sort out what the Femidine had started, I was still ‘spotting’ in between when I should have been on, however my pains were slightly better but I was still in agony a lot of the time, so my doctor prescribed me Mefenamic Acid. Which are pain killers that are quite strong, and they were helping a bit but on Brevinor I still had my periods and it made me miserable, my mood swinger were still bad and I ended up lashing out at people that I didn’t want to. I however did stay on Brevinor for quite a long time, until my pains started getting worse even with my Mefenamic Acid.
I went back to my doctor after that and then we started talking about other forms of contraception, I was very keen on having the implant, but my doctor was worried that my body might not respond to the hormones that were in it because I had tried many different pills beforehand and they hadn’t worked. So she prescribed me Cerezette, because this pill contains the same hormones as the implant, and you take it constantly without the week break. This meant that my periods ‘stopped’ completely, I say it in speech marks because they didn’t stop all together I probably had 1 every few months, but it wasn’t much, however I still had my pains, but they were a lot better and my Mefenamic Acid helped a lot. So at the end of January this year I decided that I wanted the implant, my doctor said that she was happy for me to go ahead with it as the Cerezette had been working well.
Anybody that knows me will tell you that I was the most scared person in the world about having the implant put in. I am scared of needles and I really hate pain, on top of that I bruise like a peach, so at nearly 20 years old I still made my mum come and hold my hand. I will swear to anybody that it was nowhere near as bad as I thought it was going to be, I scared myself more than anything. My doctor is one of the nicest women I have ever met and she was very good with me, she told me to put my hand behind my head so that she could get to my arm better and also so that I could turn my head away and not see what she was doing, firstly she injected some local anaesthetic into my arm and then left it to become numb. That did scratch a little bit but didn’t ‘hurt’ after that she put the implant in, which felt really weird; it just felt like a pushing, it honestly didn’t take much more than about 10 minutes. After it was done, my doctor put a plaster on to stop it bleeding and bandaged me up.
I have had it now for about 3 and a half weeks, and I can pretty much say so far it is the best thing I have had done, it was bruised for about 10 days and was a bit sore but now its healed and there is just a tiny scar, no bigger than 5mm. yes you can feel it in my arm, and it does creep a lot of people out but to me there is nothing wrong with it, it has helped me no end, my pains are not gone completely but with my Mefenamic Acid they don’t really bother me too much,  I would definitely recommend looking into it to anybody, I shall give you an update in a few months to see what I think  of it then, but on first impressions, it seems to be working me wonders, and I don’t see why I wouldn’t have it in for the full 3 years, by the time that it comes out I will be nearly 23, so at that time, depending on what situation I am in I may or may not have another one put in, because having children is very high up on my list of priorities  in the foreseeable future.
So I really hope that my story has either interested or helped some of you.
Lots of Love

Saturday, 11 February 2012

First Ever Fake Eyelashes

Hi everyone, I hope that you are all okay. This is only going to be a very short post but there will hopefully be another on later today or tomorrow.
I just thought that I would show you a picture that my friend took on Tuesday night when we were out in Liverpool, it was the 1st time I had ever worn fake eyelashes as I was always worried that I wouldn’t be able to wear them under my glasses, but I think that I can safely say that I am a convert. I wore some last night as well for my friend’s birthday night out, which I shall so a post with some pictures on when my friends have put them up on Facebook. I went and bought some from Home & Bargain, (which some people might think is weird) but I didn’t want to spend too much in case I couldn’t wear them. They are actually really nice, I will do a review of them shortly, when I have worn them more, they were 2 pairs for £1.29 which I think is very good, I also bought another pair of thicker more dramatic ones which I haven’t tried yet so they will also be in the blogpost review.

I rarely like pictures of myself but I don’t mind this one,

Speak to you soon

Thursday, 9 February 2012

Current Makeup Bag: 09/02/2012

Hi everyone
I hope that you are all okay. I thought that i would do another little series that I can do posts on, My current makeup bag. Basically my everyday makeup I am using at the moment. I will redo these posts when i change something up in my routine or something like that. I will be putting a picture of me with the makeup on in the following posts but I just decided to do this now as I normally blog late at night and didnt want to do a full face of makeup. I am not going to review the products in these posts but I will possibly do individual reviews of them or in favorites posts :)

Clinique Tinted Moisturiser - Shade 01
Collection 2000 Lasting Perfection Concealer - Light 2
Collection 2000 Illuminating Touch Concealer - Naked 1
Bourjois Delice de Soleil - Shade 12
Loreal Paris Super Liner Carbon Gloss - Carbon Black
GOSH Velvet Touch Eyeliner - Black Ink
Revlon Fabulash Mascara - Blackest Black 01
Benefit They're Real Mascara - Black
Clinique Colour Surge Eye Shadow Quad - Strawberry Fudge, Pink Chocolate, Chocolate Chip & Stone Violet (LEFT)
Clinique Colour Surge Eye Shadow Quad - Beach Plum, Strawberry Fudge & Like Mink Duo (RIGHT)
Bobbi Brown Rich Colour Gloss - Melon 2
Sleek True Colour Lipstick - Liqueur 775
M.A.C Lipstick - Whirls & Twirls (Glaze)
Natural Collection Pressed Powder - Neutral
M.A.C Paintpot - Rubenesque
Clinique Blush - Blushing Blush
 I have not added brushes as it changes from day to day. Thanks guys and i hope you enjoyed this.


Wednesday, 8 February 2012

Body Confidence - Inspired By Gok Wan

Hi everyone, I hope that you are all okay, today my post is going to be a little bit different from what I have wrote about before. I just watched the new TV series that Gok Wan is doing, Gok’s Teens: The Naked Truth. This was the 1st episode in the series and it was about body confidence. I will be the first one to admit I am a massive fan of Gok Wan and I think that he is amazing, so when I saw that he was doing a show with teenagers I was very excited to watch it.  For me I think that the show was outstanding in the way that it was made, I won’t tell you everything about it in case you haven’t seen it and want to watch it. But he is helping teenagers who want to change the way that they look because they have either little or no self-esteem, and some of the issues that he covered could have potentially been very (for want of a better word) ‘touchy’ for some people, however I think that Gok is so great in the way that he faces these sort of issues that he only educates and makes sense of things for people. So I suggest that if you haven’t yet watched the 1st episode go over to 4OD and watch it.
However this is not completely the reason that I have decided to write this blog post. Watching this got me thinking about myself. I have never been the most confident girl in the world or the one that always fits in, and I still don’t think I am now. I am so adverse to compliments it worries me sometimes and I spend so much time on my makeup, hair and clothes that it occasionally borders on obsession. I haven’t always been like this though. As I was growing up I was quite a tomboy so I really didn’t care about what anybody thought about me and would be happy in a football kit or some trackies and battered old trainers playing football in my garden.
Me my Brother & Cousin Siobhan
As I grew a bit older I still didn’t really care, I don’t think I did until I went to high school, which to be honest I think is pretty normal. I still loved my sports and that kind of thing but something changed. Granted I did go to an all-girls high school and I don’t really think that helped me or anybody else in my friendship group for that matter. Im not saying that all girls schools are bad in the slightest. Because I think that I probably did learn more, but I do think that it does put quite a lot of pressure on girls to look a particular way. No I haven’t been to a mixed school so I can’t completely compare it but I am just speaking from my opinion. For a lot of my time in high school I was bullied for looking different and being different. I was always really small and wore glasses. (which I still do) and I also used to be one of only a handful of girls that did cheerleading from my school. So they were the things that I mainly got bullied for. I went through patches in my school life where I felt that nobody liked me and that I was just too different (or weird as I used to get called a lot) I did get a pass from the school so that I could go home for my lunch as I didn’t live far from schools that I wouldn’t have to be in school at lunchtimes. However this didn’t really help matters because the few friends that I had close to me differed off with other people and then when I came back into school after lunch I would be on my own, so I do now believe that running away from things does not help. I think it was only when I got intas o my final year or 2 of high school where I found my ‘group’. If that makes sense, I was always one of those people who flitted back and forward to different groups and trying to fit in with whichever group I was with. I suppose I owe a little bit of credit to my twin brother here for a bit of help with this.
Me & My Twin James
You may not know this about me but I have a twin brother, and in our town there was the all-girls school and an all-boys school. So we were in the same year and the kids from each year kind of crossed over in friendship groups and would meet in the mornings and after school and stuff like that. Well my brother was in quite a big group and after a while he kind of helped me to integrate into this group by just going with him to parties or just going and sitting on the park after school (like you did when you were 15) but from this group I managed to find a few girls that I got quite close to and still am today, about 5 or 6 years later. I loved the fact that they were all different to each other in ways but so similar in others and everyone seemed to gel together.  When I was with them I felt like I belonged and I wasn’t an outsider, and I don’t really think I have ever felt like that since.
Me and Some of my friends :)

However even though I had and still have a great group of friends, It never changed the way I thought about myself. I still in myself feel like the ‘runt’ which I know is a horrible way to say it but I can’t think of anything better, I look at my friends when we go out and they all look so beautiful and I just don’t feel like I look good enough, still at nearly 20 what people think about the way I look bothers me, I have found my own style a bit more now I must admit, and I don’t try and dress like other people, or in fashionable stuff that I don’t really like, but I still struggle to find clothes that suit me and that I feel really comfortable and confident in.  I think part of it is down to me not knowing my actual body shape and things like that, but I make the most of what I can do.
Me (A picture I actually like)
I am currently on a mission to raise my self-confidence and make myself happy in my own skin. I had a chat with one of my good friends Alex who is making a portfolio to become a model. And she suggested that we go and do a photo-shoot together over my birthday to see how I like it and how I find being in front of the camera. I am very scared about doing this I must admit, but I do think that if I can get over my nerves it will be a good thing for me to do, to see what I can make of myself and see if I would like to get some pictures together. (I think that’s a long way off) the reason Alex suggested this to me is that she said that before she started having these pictures done she was very self-conscious and that it has boosted her self-esteem a lot. (you wouldn’t think she was self-conscious from the pictures) So I am going to give it a go, no matter how scared I am, sometimes you just have to jump in at the deep end.
One of my goregeous friend Alex's Modelling pictures (By S J Walton Photography)
So I will be keeping you updated on how this goes I think, I have quite enjoyed writing down my experiences, I think it helped a bit. I am very looking forward to the rest of the Gok Wan series and I shall see if it makes me think any more about myself.
Lots of Love
KayleighJane xxx